"Heaven" by Troye Sivan ft. Betty Who, Monday, August 29, 2022 (updated repost)

On December 4, 2015, Troye Sivan released his wildly successful first LP, Blue Neighbourhood.  Building a large Internet fanbase, Blue Neighbourhood peaked at #7 on the Billboard Hot 100 charts. The standard edition of Blue Neighbourhood  contained 3 of the 10 songs from the previously released Wild EP. The LP, though, gave Sivan his first US Top 40 single, "Youth." Four of the ten songs on Blue were singles, starting with "Wild," a remix of which was rereleased with guest vocals by Alessia Cara as Sivan's fourth single from the album, which was a major hit in South Korea.   

TRUTH RUNS WILD. The final single, "Heaven," was released on October 17, 2016. The Jack Antonoff-produced single features a second verse from fellow Australian pop star, Betty Who. After Sivan came out in a YouTube video in August of 2013, he became an LGBTQ+ icon, as he processed his sexuality in the lyrics of his music. Part of the promotion for Blue Neighbourhood was a trilogy of videos imagining the themes of two young gay lovers as they deal with the social and relational implications of their love. For the album's final single, though, Sivan digs into his religious background. Raised Orthodox Jewish, Sivan had an early crisis of faith when he thought he might be gay. He revealed to We the Unicorns that he began to ask "really, really terrifying questions. Am I ever going to find someone? Am I ever going to be able to have a family? If there is a God, does that God hate? If there is a heaven, am I ever going to make it to heaven?" Taking these thoughts into the studio with co-writers Antonoff, Alex Hope, and Clair Boucher, Sivan comes to a conclusion: "If I'm losing a piece of me/ Maybe I don't want heaven." 

WITHOUT LOSING A PIECE OF ME. The lyrics of "Heaven" deal with a personal crisis, but the video shows historic pride marches and video footage of LGBTQ+ Rights activist, Harvey Milk. The queer-themed music video was meant to be released on January 20, 2016, the day that Donald Trump was inaugurated as the 45th president of the United States, but the video was released on the 19th because of fans' responses to the video's teaser. When I first heard "Heaven" back in 2015, my Adventist-raised brain was triggered. In many Protestant denominations, there's this delicate dance between grace and works. Adventists preached against more permissive denominations that didn't take the rules from the Old Testament seriously. In order to become an Adventist, it meant giving up a list of things the world thinks is normal: 1) unclean meats 2) jewelry 3) smoking 4) alcohol 5) working on Saturdays, and that was just the beginning. I remember manipulative sermons that analyzed why ______ was sinful, and if you loved _____ more than God, you'd be sure to be left out of heaven. Adventists claimed to be more biblical than other Christians, and that grace leads to a reformed life. Of course, ask any denomination, they would draw a line on something. And all denominations  that I knew of when I was growing up,  the very basic thing was, don't be gay. Sivan's response that if he has to change, he doesn't want heaven. To an Adventist, this could be just as much for someone who doesn't want to give up bacon as someone who is gay. They would say it's all sin and a war with the flesh. Growing up in that religion it made perfect sense, until I realized I couldn't not be gay.

Read the lyrics on Genius.